I am sorry mom. You invited me home but I refused to come without any proper reason.
It’s been long since I have been home. It will be much longer till I come again. I’ve been busy. I have not been doing anything of importance yet I am busy.
I am trying to figure out something to do with potential before time runs out. For that, I need some alone time. I always had the preconceived idea that I have enough time to figure out things. But now, life has kicked in. I will have to take action.
I am awaited mom!
I can be doing so many great things but now I am just stuck with an excel sheet I update to earn 3800$ a month. I cannot begin to tell you how much I hate it. But at the same time, our family is dependent on the money rather than my Quantity and Quality of work.
When you called, I was in office. I had worked for 10 hours and I worked for 2 more hours. I will never let you know how much it sucks to be an IT rat.
Now, That is what I want to change mom. I want to do something bigger that doesn’t involve bootlicking, updating a boorish sheet, or sitting in one place for 10 hours a day.
I can never explain all this to you. I don’t want to spoil the perfect image you have of me. An Engineer happily working and living in a metro city. Because I know how badly you’ll be disturbed by knowing the reality.
Nothing is ever easy. All big things require bigger sacrifices. For now, I will accept this truth. But Truth is like a blanket that always leaves your feet cold. You push it, stretch it, it will never be enough. You kick it, beat it, it will never cover any of us. From the moment we enter crying to the moment you leave dying.
I am sorry mom. I’ll see you in a month or two.